Happy Easter

Easter has been one of my favorite holidays for many years. You could say it was because I always got a beautiful new dress and there were the egg hunts and baskets and of course I love deviled eggs as well, plus it is the true marker of Spring and who doesn't love spring? But really I love Easter for the actual reason that we celebrate. Our SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST. I have had a testimony and faith of the gospel for all of my life, but especially in high school, and then in college I had many opportunities to study the life of our Savior and I truly gained a personal relationship and understanding of the crucifixion, the Atonement and the resurrection. I admit that I am a crier, you probably know that, but this is one of those very special things that I can't even think about with out crying. As we have tried to talk with the boys about this holiday and share our thoughts about Easter, I inevitably start tearing up and then the boys come over with very concerned looks, "momma are you sad? momma are you alright? momma are you crying?" It is so hard to explain to a 3 year old that I am a little sad, but more grateful and beyond loving this great man who has done so much for me, and as I internalize all my personal failings and desires to be better, how grateful I am that I KNOW I can change,  I KNOW I am loved, I KNOW I am a daughter of God and he loves me, he understands my wants, desires and forgives my weaknesses. I am grateful for being raised with the gospel of Jesus Christ, it beings me peace every day, it directs my path in life and gives me hope for the life to come. I KNOW that every blessing I have comes from my father in heaven and especially my miracle babies who I love more dearly than I can explain even when they frustrate me more than I wish they would. When all of this and so much more rolls around in my head and my heart, how can I not burst into tears every time I think about my Savior and all that he has done for me.

I love this holiday because I get to think about all of this, and rededicate myself to being a better person, a more loving, giving and compassionate person. I take the time to think about the blessing of understanding the resurrection and that those we have loved who have gone before us will be with us again, and that this life has a purpose, there is a reason for every trial and hardship and in overcoming those and enduring to the end I get to return to our heavenly father.

Happy Easter and I hope you got the chances for reflection as I was given.